Embarking on my Made to Crave journey

taken June 17, 2011 (notice how I am using my niece to hide me)

Today, for the final time, I am embarking on a weight loss journey. The last time was 7 years ago and I must say I was successful. I lost a total of 76 pounds! I was elated to say the least. However, I did it for all the wrong reasons and as such find myself exactly where I started on Monday, July 19, 2004. How do I know the exact date? That is the day I joined Weight Watchers and still have every weight tracker. I swore I would NEVER end up there again, but here I sit right back where I started and thankful that I am not bigger. To say I am disappointed in myself is a HUGE understatement (no pun intended). I can continue to be embarrassed about it and beat myself up, or I can realize that food has a stronghold over me and give it to God.


I have been making a lot of small subtle changes in my life over these last 9 months, many of which I am just realizing as I sit here typing this. Thanks to a truly wonderful friend I started back to church - she told me I could sit with her so I didn't feel so alone. Oh if I had only known then the impact that wou have on my life. I have completed 2 Bible studies, read several books by Beth Moore, Priscilla Schirer, Joyce Meyer and Mary Southerland. All I believe in preparation for this journey I am about to undertake.


You see I have been praying for God to give me the joy and contentment I see in these and countless other women. Why am I not experiencing the things they are?? I believe my answer is found in a stronghold - food. Through my searching for answers to my weight issues and my wanting to walk with God and feel that peace and joy I came across Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst. While the study is made to be done with a group, I am going it solo this go around.


I watched the first video session and read the introduction the book today and I am more sure than I was when I purchased it that this is what I need to be successful in breaking this stronghold. She talks in the introduction about going to the doctor and having blood work done and hoping it would come back with an issue that was causing the weight and how a pill would fix everything - yep, I that too. But what really struck me and made me realize that yes Kim - this is for you is she mentioned going for a sore throat. To most this would mean nothing and ordinarly I would think the same, but I have been battling an extremem sore throat for 4 days now. Yep! This is for me!! That isn't a coincidence- that is God!


I am doing this blog as a way to track my thoughts and feelings as I undertake my journey and if it can help othes I pray that it does so. I pray that somehow through my experience and journey I will able to use it to bless others.


I am so excited to begin this journey and hopeful that as I add to this is will seem less chaotic and begin to make more sense. :D